It started w a great conversation w Dr. Hawk about my recertification for Hospice. Dr. Hawk administers all the MAID ingestions. I was telling of the random panic attacks that feel so incongruous compared to when I first got on hospice. I was all set to go then, or so I thought. (Psilocybin was early July last year.)
We discussed various benzodiazapines, but then he asked about my LSD usage. I allowed as I was 8 months overdue for a dose. He encouraged me to get back on schedule.
I'm good for another 60 days.
A recent ingestor went 3 1/2 years on hospice before deciding to use the MAID.
To go, or not to go. Such a complex issue with so many moving-target factors feeding into it!
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DeleteJessica's a little younger than my daughter, and that's the relationship that's developing. She has PTSD from being around her biological dad, a marine who came back from Viet Nam with terrible PTSD.
Though I'm not 100% cured, Kristen helped dissolve almost all of my traumas. I've yet to figure out exactly how it happened, but I'd like to see if I can pass it on to Jessica. That means sticking around for awhile.
When she listened to my heart yesterday she said it was working hard, but has a calm hum. Hope springeth eternal, donchyuhknow?
Of course, Michelle is the biggest reason. I'm her person and, as is the case for many, there's no other. Being here, by her side, encouraging where I can, is, as you as much as anyone know, is of immeasurable value. Esp when we're unable to do for ourselves as happens occassionally. 🧐
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