When, several years ago I began my search for a guide, I hoped to alleviate my anxiety around dying. As an agnostic I've no concerns about an afterlife, but when I thought about utilizing the option of Medical Aid in Dying (MAID) in order to avoid the excruciating pain of another heart attack, I felt a deep-seated fear that was too strong to transcend.
A lot has changed since I arrived in October of '23. The fear has eased, or, at least has appeared to. Still, I want to examine my motivations. Is consciousness, simply being aware, sufficient reason to continue. What if a stroke disables me and I cannot take the drugs of MAID?
It has taken a long time to get on hospice. And the fact that I am entitles me to MAID. But when?
Hopefully, today's journey on psilocybin provided some insight.
