Monday, June 16, 2025

Fixing Up Phoebe

It was the minimalist "style" of the Bavarian personnel carriers, the Pinzgauers used at Canyon de Chelly to take tourists into the canyon that I wanted Phoebe to emulate. Any extraneous plastic got stripped off and tossed. It made working on her easier but not very salable. I mean, there just aren't that many Pinzgauer-wannabe enthusiasts looking to buy a '96 Tracker that looks (at least on the inside) sortof like a personnel carrier. 

Lucky Herrmann was checking Craigslist and found a guy in Los Angeles who has recently made himself a business selling Tracker & Samurai parts. And on top of it, he has a friend, also named Mike, in Las Cruces who may help put the pieces back together. (The door latch mechanisms are real booger-bears.)



So, we're on the way to getting Phoebe ready for her next adventure.


Saturday, June 14, 2025

NO KINGS



Commemorating.








NEW YORK



State of Things - Apnea & Angina

have to take my time turning over .... to get to meds ... as turning causes nausea. 


The sleep apnea causes angina so they gave me an oxygen concentrator (oxygenator) with a mask. At some point during the night I took it off - the mask gets sweaty - and with the apnea having full rein, the angina builds. It affects my chest, shoulders and biceps and makes turning over painful.

One might think I'm complaining; certainly that's what it sounds like. But I'm not. I chose this route over the SUPPOSEDLY easier route of $1,000,000.00 open heart bypass surgery. Yes, MEDICARE would've paid 80%. Any fool can see that that leaves you with a debt of over $20,000. 

A year and a half after coming to Albuquerque I still owe $4,000.00 on my Visa for repairs to Phoebe. I hope to pay it off by this October, but my commitment to that means that we do without many other things. (my monthly visit with an escort being of chief concern.)

Actually, I'm really grateful I haven't had to undergo the pain of having my sternum sawed open, my rib cage spread apart by a tool similar to the Jaws of Life, undergone urinary catheterization with a #16 catheter.

Lemme tell yuh 'bout my visit with a urologist about my urinary difficulties; she suggested catheterization. The deal involved a "training" (by a male tech 🤨) on how to insert the catheter. The tech brought a number 16 and showed how to lubricate it and insert it into the opening of my penis. I got it in about an eigth of an inch before the pain made me stop. It took several days to recover from that. My guess is I'd *never* recover from the full monty.

It's at LEAST 6 inches from the tip of my penis to my bladder. The catheter is bendy but all things being relative, it's like threading a worm on a hook. My guess is the leading tip doesn't stay lubed much beyond an inch. This means withdrawing it and re-lubing. Think about it.

Maybe you haven't been to the doctor lately, but I've not gotten the impression they're gonna take the time to withdraw re-lube, reinsert, withdraw, re-lube, reinsert. 

The doctor said the number 16 was what they use -- standard issue. She allowed as how #14s exist (smaller) but they didn't have one.

I looked online and urinary catheters go down to a #8 for children.

Standard protocol disregards the pain induced and any post pain is completely ignored....never mentioned.

Five years after my trans-radial catheterization where they went in through my right wrist to try and stent my arteries the pain is STILL such that I cannot open a jar.





I've made it to the bathroom w/o pooping in my pants. As much as I don't enjoy running to the komode -- sometimes every 20 minutes -- I'm *still* happy with my decision. (I take anti-constipation to counter the side-effects of the fentanyl.)

https://youtu.be/ZbpqW_org3s

This is a pretty good likeness. It's what happens when the only exercise is the hike to the bathroom or the refrigerator. I shave, though. My escorts have said they don't appreciate having a brillo pad between their legs.





Friday, June 13, 2025

Psilocybin Guide

She agrees that LSD has a clarity that psilocybin lacks, but the State of New Mexico's law authorizes the use of psilocybin, not LSD....so there we go.




As a D.O., Doctor of Osteopathy, she played a major role in getting the law passed and is representing the State of New Mexico at the Psychedelic Science Conference (June 16 - 20) in Denver. 







Wednesday, May 28, 2025